(Notice that this blog post is directly from the diary that I wrote in Ghana. All of my feelings and thoughts is how I felt during my journey.)
Last night I slept okay, I woke up around four in the morning when I heard the children outside my door, cleaning the floors. I managed to fall asleep again. My stomach hasn’t been normal for over a week now so I’m starting to get used to it now. My stomach has some kind of routine now and I wake up around six or seven in the morning and then I have to rush to the toilet.
Today it will be interesting to see what the days look like here at Mums care. I can imagine that it will be different from how it was at Helping hand. One thing I noticed is that the children always say some kind of prayer here before they eat their food. So today I will probably compare a lot in my thoughts.
One thing I have been thinking about and that I find interesting is that there isn’t mirrors everywhere (like it is in Sweden for example) so I don’t know how I look and I don’t have the same need to put my makeup on. Life here in Ghana is not as fixed on looks as it is in Sweden. Since I don’t see myself so often I don’t need my makeup and I feel safe without it. It has really been a victory for me since my makeup is my security in Sweden. I haven’t used it at all here. This really says something about my personal development here.
Anna wasn’t feeling any better today even though she didn’t have any fever. So Anna and Madeleine made the decision to go to the Health care here in Senya Beraku. When they arrived Anna fainted and threw up. She had to stay there in some kind of shed made of sheet metal. They gave her intravenous drip in her arm. She will probably have to travel to Kasoa to make a malaria test at the hospital there since they don’t do malaria tests in our village.
I still have a hard time letting these children into my heart. I told my mother that since I feel so horrible about it. She thinks it’s because I know I’m about to go home soon and my heart has already been broken once when I left the children at Helping hand, it has not healed yet. I can’t let these children into my heart because it becomes harder to leave them again and my heart will break once again. It’s so hard to explain all the feelings I have 
Today I went to the market here in the village together with Agnes (my host mother and also the madam at Mums care). Grocery shopping here in Ghana isn’t like in Sweden and it got me thinking about how strange it will feel to go into a grocery store again after this trip. What a big variety of things we have in the shops in Sweden.
I and Agnes went to a place where one puts down her corn in a machine that grinds it down to corn meal. It was a really filthy and dusty place. With a thousand flies everywhere. I have never seen so many flies at the same place before. It was really unsanitary, which scared me a bit. But that is just the way it is over here.
It seems like there isn’t any special time routines here at Mums care. They don’t have “morning circle” and no “resting time”. They just do whatever they want to do, and whenever they want to do it. The other madam here at Mums care is Faustina. Today she was doing the laundry here and I could tell that she has done that a lot of times before. She was so quick! Really fascinating! You see really how habitual it is because she makes moves so incredibly fast! Although she is fast in her moves it takes one day to wash here. I helped her with hanging the laundry to dry. It was not easy since the washing line was so high up. So I had to stand on the wall on the porch to reach it. It was a bit scary since my balance isn’t the best. Everything went well and she was grateful for the help.
Today I tried to carry something heavy on my head and is was so difficult! Wow, it was sooo heavy! It was the neighbors “shop” that I tried to carry. She sells underwear. I told Agnes that I really want to learn how to carry things on my head, but we’ll see if I have the time to do that. Agnes and Faustina really appreciated the pants I wore today. It was the ones I bought in Kokrobite. They also liked my strings with pearls that I have around my hips. I wanted something that made me feel a little more like a Ghanaian. I really love the pearls.
Today the neighbors made fufu (a Ghanaian dish). So I saw the real fufu making process for the first time. It was very fascinating! I don’t know how to explain it but there were two people that made it together. One of them puts in all the pieces of the cassava (well I think it’s cassava) while the other one stood with a big block of wood and hit it into small pieces. After a lot of hits with the block of wood it turned into dough, which she turns around while he continues to hit the log. She had easily been able to get her fingers smashed but they had a great collaboration!
Anna came back after a while. She was still not feeling good and the doctor suspects’ malaria due to her symptoms. So she has received injections and medications now. I hope she gets better soon and that it isn’t malaria. But she will probably still have to go to Kasoa to take a test so we can find out if it is malaria. She ate some of the soup that Agnes gave us for dinner today, but an hour later it came up again… I felt sorry for her.
I really try to enjoy the warm temperature more these days I have left here in Ghana. The heat has become my everyday now and my body is used to it. So now I don’t sweat as much as I did in the beginning. It feels very surreal to me that I’ll soon be in Sweden again and have all the snow around. It feels so far away and I’m really not looking forward to the cold weather. I’m really going to miss the warm temperature here and of course all the people I’ve met.